I have been living the past couple of years trying to pay attention to life with an open mind and question the world as I experience it. I also constantly evaluate myself so I know the exact place I make my decisions from and what makes my knees shake. What I have come to conclude from endless analyzation is that experience is what a person makes of what they have. Not just what they own or what is in front of them but what they have inside of their souls. Experiences are filtered through expectations and assumptions built upon individually unique pasts. Scenes are perceived after they have been filtered, differently, in each person. Our subjective views are never as clear cut as they may seem. From experience, I know the only way to see what picture came out on the other side of someone else's filter is by asking them questions and listening to the answers. Where do they make their decisions from and what makes their heart race? I would really like to know.
My entire wealth of motivation for my future is rooted by exchanging stories that connect people. My parents could tell you stories about my abilities to talk for, what seems like days, and I think I have figured out a way to channel that "talent" into the most energizing life path. Conversations in my life, recently, have all been meaningful. I have exchanged my goals and passions with those of strangers, confidantes and old friends. Each story renews my sense of reality as I say the word "Africa" more times in a day than I have said in my entire life. Yet, this reality was built in a dream so I constantly have to remind myself to be present because this is actually reality.
